Am I not being me?

When I close my eyes, I see your eyes
I hear you for hours, I’m the silence
When you're far from me, my life dries
I need you forever, now I do realize

I asked the moving cloud, it rained
saying, "you need my touch than her"
I asked the blowing wind, it kissed
saying, "I can make you feel better"
I don't understand the outer world
when you're inside me, I surrender

beg you, please leave me never alone
I stop my breath and think of you
before I take the next, I'm stolen
I can never live the life without you

Situations question, where my life has gone?
I struggle to answer, what I really feel you for
Reasons abscond, finally only emptiness, I own
I grabble to grasp, but you're outside my door
Thunders outrage, even darkness gets a shine
I hope, soon my life finds the piece of honor

New dreams glorify the life amidst old memories
I'm leaning on bank stretching my hands for you
Let me not sink, let's swim to draw the Destinies
I cognize, not being me is 'cos of not having you!

You're my paradise

In the afternoon, I go for a stroll,
thinking far on you, for being alone
Skin burns but mind dwells into a cool
realm of your feelings, abysmally arisen

Last night lonesomeness spill glooms
all the day, somehow I find the rooms
to ameliorate, and pray for the peace
I discover the hope, which unveils
the way to paradise through your dense
affections even amidst your absence
Every single moment without you sucks
my real life, I'm down on my own lucks

Reality is the beauty of life, when you
touch my heart through your kiss to woo
To someone I belong, it's none but you
somewhere we need to reach, to be true!

A ray of love

I don't want you be right near me, in dreams I feel
I can survive just with your thought; but I wish I kill
myself, and wanna lose you forever; no! I'm still
sanguine, you stay with me, I can face the life in real

I see the world, all of your beauty, before a feeling spur,
I can't stop my mind, when the true love is at my door,
out of stone I carve your statue and clothe it with the fur,
my feelings feel it; moments without you are never there

I trust you and give up everything for you, Oh my future,
I honor you till my last breath for being my life savior
when you are with me, I don't need the world anymore
when I feel your soul, I feel my ray of love fades never

A world-weary optimist

I spy not on my but the high sky
dreams, and I die never before I try
I cry for a smile but the style why
seems to be a solitary stand by
I look back into the heart of my
aims, realize now its hard to satisfy
I fuck myself up in a stylish fly
but it drains my mind and I draff to play

I get into my time and try to trace its lane
to kill the kiss of death, but it rains in vain
I wet my hand and try to touch the pain
to heal my scars but I'm blazed again
I close my eyes to read my mind, it's insane
the song of life couldn't reach me, never I gain
I lose my legs and limp somehow to heaven
real feelings ruined me down, I myself a bane.

I try change my future to keep my grieves aside
past repeats again, I'm killed by myself inside
I start to run to raise my breath, shadow moves beside
to distract my coercive spirit and I gradually subside
I don't count the last days of my life, and I hide
all my past life behind sanguinary struggle for a sacred ride
I'm the serene soul seeking an ascetic life, I stride
the life as an omnipotent and disappear into infinite void