Undisturbed

No word is unsaid and no world is unvisited when I hold myself a contented my half life. My first breath was my beginning and the last breath is going to be my end, in-between is my reality. Real world has enough influence on my reality, but now I decide to be undisturbed. Love, joy, grief, peace, strife all live outside my reality. With this kind of psychic control I shall live rest of my life being more materialist. Life has given me the most and now it’s my turn to give my best to the world. I’m certain uncertainty; the world is uncertain certainty, whilst neither has the property of immortality. So I seek to be undisturbed, and live rest of my introversive life as if I'm dead!

World is world though I shan't be what I'm
Myth, reality builds it, it's another mayhem
A day's draft is worth a day, life is a swept gem
Fine feelings vanish; enough souls don't whelm-
the dooms, and lied my life behind all of them

Lone land, lone life, moving time is my false mind
Ponder I my vexed thoughts, a cipher in the wind
Nor I'll be back, nor I ever walk, it's a notional kind
Killing the ego, there I go where the life has best bind
with myself ever I live undisturbed, ever world behind

Being nothing

The far future, so far I had dreamt has never had
such hopes as high as you, the charm of you-
has veiled my heart, you never been so beloved
Night is long; as long as I think, I think of you
Floating mind dwells all over your realm, finds
sometimes a smile, sometimes a wild silence
Whenever I think of world, I feel you
Whenever I think of me, I feel you
Whenever I think of you, do you feel me?
I know myself the most, I must learn to survive,
without world, without you, without me
I hope for a new life when it's morning,
being nothing; the only way to be: be nothing

Ratiocinator

Why the world isn't mine at heart?
When it’s gonna end, when did it start?
How shall I know, what all is hidden in that?
What I think finally isn’t what I want!
Who had felt the first beat of my heart?
Who had let me here for the naked jaunt?
Why did all I do one day end up in naught?
Where the Reality there isn't my thought!

I think of life before and after my life
"There I'm unseen", is beyond my belief
Here, there, everywhere, having complete relief
Strewed soma, dead mind, an unidentifiable self

To create me, to relieve me, Nature has the power
Blood, brain, heart… what else can make me survivor?

I think like sun, I think like stone… I am the one in everyone.

A simple life

I write every line for my happiness
I live every day with total liveliness
I start the day with a blissful dreaming
I end the day giving it a real meaning

I freeze, when my deeds meet failures
I rock, when my deeds meet the success
I bother never for the needs of living
I feel my presence till I am a being

I forget the past to have myself present
I foresee never, in far future I'll be absent
I control myself ‘cos I've to be what I wanna be
I succor myself for whatsoever I can’t be

A hiking in Dharwar drizzle

Sitting beneath the coconut tree
Think I why the lifeless time doesn't set me free
Smell of the day merely drags me
To the worldly world where I never want to be
I start to walk along the street
The world lives in gloom as sun has to retreat,
Drizzly weather has surely hit
My heart, amidst I own myself, further I don't sit
Every sight conceives the beauty
Wherein I fall fully to feel the temporal ecstasy
Each corner of the salubrious city
Mesmerizes me, I feel I’m the nature’s legacy
Surround life has enliven my space
I’ll coalesce into nature leaving an annihilative trace
Knowing the source of pulchritude once
I end my jaunt; being a substance crowning the exultance
I’ll spot my presence in every existence

A selfish seeker

Whilst her heart could beat for my life
Quaint love would drench me, it's an early freak
Without her, sometimes with her, it’s been strife
To land no where but end up with creak
Although arose there her lust to relinquish
Rather in deed derived to be deprived
Smelled she even asleep, and had to languish
Stories of her life not to get her depraved
Why did I have her to seek my fortune?
Her love haunt my solitude and keep me restrained
Inside me, hasn't she grown beyond her notion?
By her love, bewildered, bothered, and blazed
Had I ever been to her for me never for her
Her self wasn't there for her, but I seek her ever

You’re back in my life!

FB: Hey Aravind, what’s that for which the whole world goes mad?
Me: Wait, I know, yeah, it’s FIFA?
FB: Ok, Good, now tell me, what’s that for which Aravind goes mad?
Me: Common dear, it’s nothing but FOOT BALL!
FB: Great! Wish you All the Best for your Conti Cup.
Me: Oh, dear you know that already!

You know, today I started a new chapter in my life. After 9 years again I started playing football. This time I’m playing for Conti Cup 2009/10. Thanks to Continental (Official Sponsor of 2010 FIFA World Cup, SA). I always aim high and it’s gonna hurt me lot, if we don’t even win the first match. I know, software engineers play quite well inside the meeting rooms but on playgrounds, let’s see.

Today, I felt like I got back one of the precious thing in my life, which I had lost. To celebrate this, remembering one of my favorite inspirational tracks: Ricky Martin’s La Copa De La Vida (the Cup of Life), I dedicate this Sonnet to you!

I dream of world, everyone holding you in their hand
It’s a different life; they’ve zeal, and know the purpose
When they start, never they look back, never they stand
Rushing against wind, sweating under sun, never to lose
Know they nothing but you, march they on and on for glory
Play they beyond their horizon, to reign their world
While crossing oceans, climbing mountains, never they worry
With no ruin of rule, their mind plays tactics unprecedented
Mysteries of world get fogged by their strategies for a survival
Sometimes motivated, sometimes demotivated, but firmly destined
every ticking moment, kicking and kicking, it's like a carnival
Here they move and move where had they never moved
Can they push you there where you get a freedom
and they hug the victory? I shall do it being out of dream!

A thought on life

I had days; no one were on my ways
Never had I wanted to win the world
Never had I wanted to win the heart
Ordinary life wasn’t a fanatical race

I eyed her for her touching smile
Never had I wanted to win for her
Never had I wanted to win her for-
a special life, not even for a while

I heard her worldly words for my life
Never she departed my unworldly world
Never she disfavored an elusive thought
Must she be my thought, or my life?

I had trusted her and still I trust for:
giving me the love knowing my need,
healing my life in an unselfish deed
Unbeaten she gave up me nor her

Her forgiven sinner

Love drips from her red eyes beholden to him
Inside the deserted cave, with no rave prayer
When circumstantial time moulds a willful whim
He bolts beyond the bounds, her forgiven sinner
Though her untold words whisk the clamor
Her burning breath smell, sound and surround
Wrath builds never behind her pacific behaviour
Rotten wounds ever marked her on the ground
Whole thought has her life, but the words broken
Still trees there make a sigh knowing no ways
Blushing flowers bring accolades to his life given
His heart closed her never, he still has her stays
Pure mind jerks for others' trust, roots within the trusty
Awaken he, can hold her hand ever or seek to be free!

Eugenics

Sun is bright, earth is hot, sky observes a strange silence
A drop of sweat slides from his forehead along the nose
It foresees the next fiery moments of the battlefield and
disappears in flush of blood, before reaching the ground

Generations evolved, civilizations nurtured, innovations persevered
Peace still hangs back from the heart of people, reasons are myriad
Here humans kill humans for betterment of humans; in a bloody deed
And is it so difficult to understand, even the grass has a sipid stand?

He who can’t create can kill then why the nature has him created?
When he puts himself in others’ situation, has he himself abided?
Centuries have passed without knowing the purpose of little life
May the beauty of universe flourish to enlighten the every self?

Anima

I’m not aware, to whom did I belong
before my birth in the woman's womb
Oh my mind, tell me when I sleep deep
why do I go there, where I've no feel

What must have I taught, what must have I learnt
to have the life, beyond my realms, understood?
Haven't I spent enough time on making my bread?
Mustn't I grow beyond the genders before I'm dead?

I wanna feel what all I can't feel, I need an extreme sensation
I don't wanna have the same me inside me, again and again
Every breath of my life must take me towards the perfection
And am I not complete when my unconscious feminine is mine?

Survivor

I walk with my thoughts along the line of trees
I’m driven by your spirits beyond every reason
I heed the action to make you as my destination
I’m in need of my shadow, I’m on my knees
I chop my skin to smell my blood for my beliefs
I’m sinned, without accepting you as my Divine!
I moan enough to lighten my heart and I sustain
I’m on the wrong way, and I get healed by leaves
I start to try and try, without spinning my wheels
I’m blessed to have your life for me, I’m unbeaten
I depart from my hazy life to the serene heaven
I’m an aesthete faithfully veiled by your beauties
I disguise never in front of my beloved bee’s knees
I’m the survivor until my thoughts are your creeds

The window

In the morning, I open the window
I see there the sun rising, quite slow
inside I feel, I'm stopped to throw
a thought on you, it's a routine flow

brisk wind pierces my skin, I'm numb
mist melts to unveil the beauty, I'm dumb
sedulous mind sounds not to succumb
at least until I find your love's crumb

you may not know how it feels when
I think nothing but you as my heaven
all the day being introvert takes me in
never outside the window, I'm unseen

It's evening, I open the other window
I see there the sun setting, quite slow
He did see the whole world in real hue
I enjoyed my day, thinking only on you

Am I not being me?

When I close my eyes, I see your eyes
I hear you for hours, I’m the silence
When you're far from me, my life dries
I need you forever, now I do realize

I asked the moving cloud, it rained
saying, "you need my touch than her"
I asked the blowing wind, it kissed
saying, "I can make you feel better"
I don't understand the outer world
when you're inside me, I surrender

beg you, please leave me never alone
I stop my breath and think of you
before I take the next, I'm stolen
I can never live the life without you

Situations question, where my life has gone?
I struggle to answer, what I really feel you for
Reasons abscond, finally only emptiness, I own
I grabble to grasp, but you're outside my door
Thunders outrage, even darkness gets a shine
I hope, soon my life finds the piece of honor

New dreams glorify the life amidst old memories
I'm leaning on bank stretching my hands for you
Let me not sink, let's swim to draw the Destinies
I cognize, not being me is 'cos of not having you!

You're my paradise

In the afternoon, I go for a stroll,
thinking far on you, for being alone
Skin burns but mind dwells into a cool
realm of your feelings, abysmally arisen

Last night lonesomeness spill glooms
all the day, somehow I find the rooms
to ameliorate, and pray for the peace
I discover the hope, which unveils
the way to paradise through your dense
affections even amidst your absence
Every single moment without you sucks
my real life, I'm down on my own lucks

Reality is the beauty of life, when you
touch my heart through your kiss to woo
To someone I belong, it's none but you
somewhere we need to reach, to be true!

A ray of love

I don't want you be right near me, in dreams I feel
I can survive just with your thought; but I wish I kill
myself, and wanna lose you forever; no! I'm still
sanguine, you stay with me, I can face the life in real

I see the world, all of your beauty, before a feeling spur,
I can't stop my mind, when the true love is at my door,
out of stone I carve your statue and clothe it with the fur,
my feelings feel it; moments without you are never there

I trust you and give up everything for you, Oh my future,
I honor you till my last breath for being my life savior
when you are with me, I don't need the world anymore
when I feel your soul, I feel my ray of love fades never

A world-weary optimist

I spy not on my but the high sky
dreams, and I die never before I try
I cry for a smile but the style why
seems to be a solitary stand by
I look back into the heart of my
aims, realize now its hard to satisfy
I fuck myself up in a stylish fly
but it drains my mind and I draff to play

I get into my time and try to trace its lane
to kill the kiss of death, but it rains in vain
I wet my hand and try to touch the pain
to heal my scars but I'm blazed again
I close my eyes to read my mind, it's insane
the song of life couldn't reach me, never I gain
I lose my legs and limp somehow to heaven
real feelings ruined me down, I myself a bane.

I try change my future to keep my grieves aside
past repeats again, I'm killed by myself inside
I start to run to raise my breath, shadow moves beside
to distract my coercive spirit and I gradually subside
I don't count the last days of my life, and I hide
all my past life behind sanguinary struggle for a sacred ride
I'm the serene soul seeking an ascetic life, I stride
the life as an omnipotent and disappear into infinite void